Sunday, November 21, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
When midnight strikes and
Cinderella’s had one too many to recall that she
Had her pumpkin there all along,
We slink off into the black night.
Music echoes off of empty bottles drained by
Thirsty kids, too young to care about the implications of
Their actions or reactions or the
12% induced thoughts blurted out, in lieu of
A moment of silence.
Metal cans touch plush lips, they dream about
Kissing their neighbor on the cheek just to say
Hey, I love you, I think you’re ok.
Hey, are you ok?
And there are hands on hands and feet touching feetHere's to falling in love for the seventh time.
Cheers to a life in which all aspirations lie in the
Graze of two lips, put your hand on his hips,
Bring her back to your place and then
Give him the slip.
Hands, feet, hips, lips, snap shots of
Bronx memories, or lack thereof,
Which haunt these walls that
hold us in, but keep us
Around, hanging on to each other
For one more night in the devil town.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
sent this to one of my bffs exactly one year ago. oh, to be a freshman!
update: 2 months into school
i’m still me. i still wear big sweaters and pregnancy leggings, and i refuse to give up my dad’s old flannels. think i might wear them till they are tatters. i have found a new distaste for elitism- especially that of the hipster brand, the most unfounded, ridiculous kind- and a new appreciation for the rarity of an open mind. i still stay in on most nights and realize that in truth, i prefer coffee and conversation to meaningless banter at bars. i still crave independence and i still strive to be the best i can be, but i take breaks more often now to look at the world around me. i have a rediscovered the desire to read and learn and push myself. i love my parents more than ever and miss my sister with 400% of my being. i now realize that my home friendships were in fact real, and that they may change in some aspects but they will never fade from my mind or heart. i’m a little less confident and a little more of a chameleon, but i think that’s ok too. i hope that’s ok. i am starting to crave companionship sometimes, especially in autumn, but i think it’s a sign i’m over you. i’m not as cool as i thought. i wrote my first poem since i’ve been here last night and i think i like it. i’m starting to worry about my future, but i know it’s all going to work out. i’ve become very good at putting things in perspective. i still long, i still lust, i still listen to ella fitzgerald under the covers with my eyes closed. i’m still me.
update 1 yr 2 months into school:
still me, but with a tattoo, bangs, and more pairs of leggings. still into that. still a dreamer, still a learner, still curious. much more into politics. much less productive. happier, smarter, and calmer. still all about the coffee, but i drink tea now too. it’s much more comforting. don’t dislike hipsters as much as i used to, but still laugh at how high their noses sit in the air. must be hard to see reality like that. still in love with my 4 best friends, and also much more in love with all my new best friends at college. i cook now, and stopped sewing. and of course, i will always listen to ella under the covers with my eyes closed. i’m me, but more adult.
1. got a tattoo
2. planning on chopping off all my hair
3. losing 15 pounds
...or maybe it's a sign that i'm coming back from the deep end? mmm i like that choice more. ill let you know the verdict when i finish up.
in other news, i'm starting to write well and think clearly for the first time in years. i think it's because i'm sad in a really genuine way, not just mopey about my pretty great life. i miss you, grammy, and if you can read blogs in heaven, i hope you know i am going to make you so proud of me. i can't wait to shine for you.